"Winds of Change"

It is the quintessential spring day in Tennessee if ever there was one! There is just no place like springtime in Tennessee.... but the winds are really high today...and as I stood outside in the sun, I closed my eyes..... in my spirit I heard "the winds of change are blowing"..yes these are the winds of change." Isn't it amazing how you can wait so long, pray and pray and pray for change, but as you sense it's coming you almost want to run the other way!! Not really but.....We are such an interesting lot:) Are we not?!!:) Then I had another picture...God gives me pictures sometimes...I saw the scene from the Titanic when Kate Winslet and Leonardo DiCaprio are standing on the bough of the ship... she was scared at first, but she let go as he held her, and she opened her eyes and leaned into the wind. I just keep hearing the Holy Spirit say.................
"Just lean into the wind....Just lean into the wind...let it take you..I've got you...you're safe..Just lean into the wind and let it take you to where I want you to be. Just trust me...keep your focus on me and just trust me." God is so faithful. Even in all of our pain and questions, and not understanding so much....with no answers.... I've been thinking about my Mom alot today...I miss her so much...she passed away very recently...she is the one who brought music into my life...I remember the Sunday mornings when I was a little girl..I would wake up to the smell of meatballs, and spaghetti sauce cooking on the stove and some great jazz artist playing on the record player. And she would be singing in the kitchen along with Tony Bennett or Sarah Vaughn, Ella Fitzgerald...so many others. That is the music I cut my teeth on I guess you would say. And R&B!!:) I remember right before she died, sometimes she would sing on the phone to me..I would say "Mom sing me a song.." And very feebly she would begin...sometimes she would forget words and I would help her...tears were streaming down my face, but I never let her know that i was crying on the other end...I spent most of my life away from her and missed her very much...and I still do. I know it is time to sing again...even though the doctors told me I might never be able to sing again...or even talk the same...Look at God! I talk exactly the same...and I can still sing. Lord give me the courage to see this through. I know it is what she would want me to do......I feel the winds of change....

Love,
Patricia