"Look To The Rainbow"

I have never heard this song before....till the other day...It has touched me so deeply..I have to post the lyrics.....

On the day I was born
Said my father, said he
I've an elegant legacy
Waiting for ye
'Tis a rhyme for your lips
And a song for your heart
To sing it whenever
The world falls apart

Look, look...look to the rainbow
Follow it over the hill
And the stream
Look...look...Look to the rainbow
Follow the fellow
Who follows a dream

'Twas a sumtuous
To bequeath to a child
Oh the lure of that song
Kept her feet funnin' wild
For you never grow old and you never stand still
With whippoorwills singin
Beyond the next hill

Look...look...Look to the rainbow
Follow it over
The hill and the stream
Look...look..Look to the rainbow
Follow the fellow
Who follows a dream
Follow the fellow
Who follows a dream

Some Lyrics......

I was just reading some of the lyrics from my friend Bill LaBounty's new CD. there is a song called "Stay High"....and these lyrics just are so sweet I had to post this....

You and I were born to drive down blacktop roads on summer nights
Look at the moon up there just daring us to fly and stay up high...stay up high
Baby I chased a lightning bug along the riverbank out behind the smokestacks
Into the woods
I followed a trail through the blueberry patches
Deeper and deeper into the wilderness on Natchez
With melodies floatin on the 4th of July
And Henry Mancini in a cadillac....
Movin across the Mason Dixon line
I never intended to fall so hard..
I couldn't get up so I laid down by the side of the road
In the green green grass
With the dixie cups and chicken bones
And listened to the sound of the blues goin electric in Chicago
I'm gonna wrap my arms around you now
and we're gonna dance right here in the parking lot
this digital rain can't outbeat the blood in our veins
I'm gonna kick out the stops
And let the light in...
Get back on the interstate
And we'll just keep drivin'

"Pouring T "

I must write this morning. I am pregnant with something so beautiful. Out of the bed.....and into the deep...bursting with thoughts.... images....with every glorious color and breathtaking hue to paint a story of my love across the sky. And love is building a beautiful creation within me.....strong.... slow..... and steady....with sweet intensity. This is something eternal. It is, by it's very nature lengthening the place of my cords....opening my heart so wide.....God plants a seed so deep and makes room in the heart for love beyond our own capacity, this love... the kingdom of God coming to earth, and then giving birth..the earth groans ...waiting for the manifestation of the sons of God...love bringing new life!! So I will dream of you my beloved...my wild fronteir...your soaring spirit, with its rough hewn montains and expansive plains....the fire in your eyes...and the light within them ...like a dancing flame....and you ....burning steady like a bed of white hot coals that lay at the bottom of a hearth... that you only get after you've had a good fire going for a while.. from a life filled with passion and a heart set aflame... that warms all who come near him...through...his joy,his sorrow, his pain...the gift of him...the warmth of him..."out of the wild blue"..."coming up from down under"..he lights my world like a meteor blazing across the sky...I have known the treasure of him... he is a gift to me... and because he walks upon this earth .....the world is a better place to be...I thank God He gave me the eyes to see.......for just like MichaelAngelo.... he paints exquisite works of art...for me....in his melodies.....Emmanuel.... "God is with us" he takes me on celestial navigations....I'm in tune with his etherial key..... and all the music of heaven plays its song for me....in a sacred place to interface....his tenderness.....I can hear him in the silence...sometimesI can feel his spirit next to me.... even when he is far away...and the depth of emotion he causes me to feel...the desire to show up for him like a queen ....lavishly.... and extravagantly...always putting me in touch with the woman God created me to be...the overwhelming joy I feel....when he is near to me....it's like Christmas everyday.

"Holding Out"

Theres nothing outside my window
But the sound of the pouring rain
Trying to pick up a station
That will carry me through this night
I've got a fire to keep me warm
Till I've got you in my arms

Holdin out
Dug in deep
I've got a night.... that I'm gonna keep
I close my eyes.... but I know I won't sleep
Holdin out
I know love won't forget me...
I've got to keep holding out

You know I've been dreaming about you
For the better part of my life
I guess I can make it without you ....for one more night
I'm not afraid of the thunder
I won't run away from the storm


I'm holding out
Dug in deep
I've got a night.... that I'm gonna keep
I close my eyes.... but I know I won't sleep
I'm holding out
I know love won't forget me
I've got to keep holding out

I'll tell you for sure.... there is no other love in this world I could want more

I'm holding out....

I've got a fire to keep me warm
Till I've got you in my arms
Holding out
I'm dug in deep
I've got a night here... that I've got to keep
I'll close my eyes... but I know I won't sleep
I'm holding out..... for one more night
I've been waiting here baby....I'm holding out
Keeping the fire burning....

by Bill LaBounty

"A Late Bloomer & A Bear Thats Been to the Fair..."

I have had an amazing life... A life replete with so much joy, happiness, pain, sorrow....and hope. God has been so good to me:)
I think my favorite time of day is at twilight..I love beautiful sunsets...I think because you stand at the place of a day in the life being just about completed...yet on the brink of a new tomorrow..... and the promise that it brings. I know the value and importance of being in the moment and being present here and now...for we are not promised tomorrow, yet I know that I am getting ready to enter into a whole new season in my life and I can't focus on the rear view mirror. I find it so interesting to get to this place and feeling somehow like I am eighteen years old standing on the brink of a whole new world...."The Wild Frontier" Now Lord??!! At this season in my life!! It is such a dichotomy to me..God has given me wisdom I know...yet I feel so childlike at times..filled with wonder......it is sooo mysterious... What an amazing feeling. God truly does renew our youth like the eagle when we wait on Him. I never dreamed I would get to this place in my life and be where I am. I marvel at what God has done in my life even though it is still some hard times...My friend Becky said to me yesterday that she and Bill were talking on the way home the other night.. about me....she said "we can not believe it..you don't age at all... what is it!!??" I don't know what to say...after everything in my life ...an accident that left me unrecognizable...never had to have the plastic surgery scheduled for my face!! Miracles!...being so ill as a child...I should really be dead! But I'm still here:) Thank God!! It is all by His redeeming grace Becky....all by his grace. And the amazing thing is I feel like there is still so much I haven't experienced! And I believe the best is yet to come.... even though I have traveled, a career in music, ...there are things I still want to experience. Like romance...Paris... trains in the countryside...... and the love of my life. I guess I'm a late bloomer...most people get to this place in their life and have that... or at least have experienced it. I write about it....it comes from such a deep place in my soul...but I have never experienced it with someone.... A shared life like that.... I mean "crazy koo-koo off the chain at the same time reciprocated kind of love:) !" And it is very scary when you look around and see all the confusion with men and women...women chasing after men...and men expecting to be chased!! What in the world has happened to us? Don't women want to feel like Cora did in "The Last of The Mohicans" when Nathaniel said to her in a torrent of passion" No matter how long it takes..no matter how far...I will find you...just stay alive ..I will find you!!" I'm not saying that a woman ought to derive the meaning of her existence from whether or not she has been, or is being romanced by a man, but don't you see that she wants this.....she wants to feel like someone's priority. Most of our addictions as women flare up when we feel that we are not loved or sought after... A man is wired to pursue a woman... and a woman is wired to be desired!! I think it is God's creative design... and I think the most fun way!:) Why does a man just sit back passively like he's got corn for sale? Could be "He's Just Not That Into You"? I believe that when a man wants a woman she will feel like she has a "Wanted" poster tatooed to her chest...:) Think about the movies you love...I just watched a great one "P.S. I Love You" I have watched it several times this week...The love story was amazing...he died in it , and I wasn't focusing on that part( It's time to live!!:)...but about the great love that they shared...he loved her so passionately. And she loved him so passionately. One of my favorite James Taylor songs is "A Woman's Got To Have It"...A woman just said recently"I don't want to hang my life on it, but still I yearn" Of course .You're a woman!....It is no fun being "crazy koo-koo" in love with someone by yourself. And settling just to have someone is totally out of the question...for me. There are worse things than being alone( even though it is soooo tough!!) and that is being with someone where it is "compromise" all the time and not "suitability!!" Bill and Becky have a great love... Bill wrote a song called "Holding Out"...and it is the truth. I'm holding out for my great love. I wrote something years ago.. and I found it this week in a box on a piece of paper ...." I want a bear whose been to the fair! A man who knows what it is like to love and lose everything...because when God presents a great love in his life...he'll know the treasure and the gift that she is...and he won't let her go." Here is a quote from the movie "P.S. I Love You." Harry Connick Jr. was standing there with Hillary Swank talking.....and I will leave the page with this for now.... he said to her as they were looking at a couple across the way..."We're so arrogant aren't we? We're so afraid of age...we do everything we can to prevent it. We don't realize what a priviledge it is to grow old with someone. Someone who doesn't drive you to commit murder.....or who doesn't humiliate you beyond repair..." Lord have mercy...

"Tenderness of Spirit...(The Cream of Heaven:) ) ...and the joy of being sequestered

"Wednesday is Indigo Blue"..........That is the title of a new book I am getting ready to read."Discovering the world of synesthesia.
A person with synesthesia might feel the flavor of food on their fingertips..sense the letter J as shimmering magenta or the number 5 as emerald green. A woman might hear and taste her husband's voice as buttery golden brown.(that's what I'm talkin about...:)) Synesthetes rarely talk about their peculiar sensory gift. Synesthesia occurs in one in twenty people and is more common among artists. I am very interested in this because I believe I experience this sometimes...especially with music I can see colors sometimes. This is going to be a very fascinating read. And I guess now is the time to do it. I must confess I have been experiencing some frustration for the past few days in that there are things I would like to do and I haven't been able to get done.This time is so precious to me right now, not having a job and all, so I am very conscious of the gift it is in some ways, and feeling very responsible for things to be accomplished while I have the time to do it in others, but God is showing me some things for sure!!...On Sunday I started having some discomfort in my left ear. I have had to deal with some inner ear issues since I was a little girl from an illness...haven't had any problems with it for a long while but here I am having to stay down..somehow I have gotten an inner ear infection and fluid building up in my left ear. The doctor has given me some strict orders and one of them is to relax and stay down for a couple days...ooooh why is this sooo hard? I am not very good at practicing patience right now, I am totally confessing this.... and I can clearly see.. I want to "control" some of this time. Time to "let go and let God" for sure! the thing about me is when I "get it" I really "get it" it might take a minute but when I get it I get it!.... so I am going to go with the flow and get the understanding of "waiting on god "let patience have her perfect work that you may be perfect and complete and lacking in nothing" James 1:4 Because even though I feel like I need to know what to do right now and what about a job?.... and oh my gosh!!! a zilllion other questions...what about music ...my life,what about this Lord and what about that?!!....gee I want the answers now!!!!:) All of them!! OK ..baby girl.. slow down and "be anxious for nothing!" Jeremiah 29:11 says" For I know the plans that I have for you declares the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for calamity...to give you a future and a hope!."
That is so true and so beautiful. So basiclly I need to cool my jets right now...take a chill pill!!:) Let go and Let God...and I am going to do just that...so today it is jammy day on the sofa, fire in the fireplace, lots of green tea,listening to music, and reading about synesthesia! The book says that Billy Joel has this. Interesting ...this is something beautiful I just read in "Springs in the Valley" book....Tenderness of spirit cannot be borrowed or put on for special occasions: it is emphatically supernatural and must flow out incessantly from the interior fountain of the "Christ-life".It is an exquisitely interior fountain of God's own sweetness and tenderness of nature, opened up in the inner spirit to such a degree that it completely inundates the soul overflowing all the mental faculties, and saturating with its sweet waters, the manners, expressions, words, and tones of the voice; mellowing the will, softening the judgement, melting the affections, refining the manners, and moulding the whole being after the image of Him who was infinitely meek and lowly in heart. Oh my gosh !!...I love this statement...listen to this... what beautiful verbage...It is possible to be "religious" (haha) yuk yuk:o...perfect in all Christian duties, to be a brave defender and preacher of holiness, blameless in outward life, and good works and yet be greatly lacking in tenderness of spirit....that all subduing, all melting love...which is the very cream and quintessence of Heaven, and which incessantly streamed out from the voice and eyes of Jesus." Wow....."the very cream and quintessence of heaven"...what a phrase...wow...the voice and the eyes...my prayer today is that tenderness of spirit...all melting love,the cream of heaven, would come out to others through my voice and eyes. Please do that for me Lord. Amen! That is one of my new prayers forever now! Help me with fear about singing Lord....and whenever I do sing, or speak with someone Lord .........please let the very cream and quintessence of heaven flow out of my voice and eyes from you... to people.......Gee if I had not been sequestered to this sofa today I may not have ever read this...God knows what he is allowing..... and what He is doing....
I have nothing further to say your honor....haha:)

"Life..."

I'm back to write now....This has been an interesting week. Spent Thanksgiving with some friends. And I met some lovely people from Africa...they were so warm and dear... and we all had dinner together...Sanmi, Yinka, Yebi, and Tobi...Temi and Bimpe,Sharon and Wendell, Daryl and Pam....lovely time together. Then on Saturday my dear friend of over twenty five years, Sharon came for a visit. She is just back from a trip to Israel and she arrived Saturday afternoon. What a joy to see her...she wanted to take us out to have dinner Saturday night, but I knew she had been travelling and really felt she needed some R&R badly. So I insisted we hang out and that we did. We went in the kitchen and hung out there for a good while and talked and laughed while I cooked...and I mean cook I did!! Some serious Italian cooking!! I made home made fettucine alfredo (Aunt Stella's recipe) and my"Pollo Ala' Patti" chicken in a wine cream sauce with peppers and mushrooms...garlic bread....baked an apple cream cheese crostada for desert and coffee! Oh my gosh we were laughing so hard...Sharon went crazy over the food!! We stayed up late Satuday night...got in our jammy's and had a fire in the fireplace, I partially decorated the living room for Christmas with twinkling little white lights in some trees, candles lit up...we just got blankets and piled up on both ends of the sofa and laughed and talked for hours. We had tears talking about Israel...I went some years back and we both shared what our experiences were like....we finallly fell asleep and Sunday morning I made us breakfast and we talked for a few hours again and then she had to leave to go on to Knoxville to look at a site for an event. Sharon is very knowledgable about politics in Washington and is the event planner for a key group in D.C. and what is going on "on the hill" so we discussed alot of things regarding that and the direction our country is headed in right now. Serious stuff....we go deep..on all topics!! She is like a sister I never had! It was bittersweet saying goodbye...the time went so fast. She called me on the way to Knoxville and said she felt like she was at an "Oasis" of refreshing and felt such peace and comfort here at my place and felt so refreshed and revived when she left. That meant so much to me. I've always had a dream of having a real home...a house someday... where friends would come and it would be filled with music, and love, and joy, and good food, and a wonderful place to be. I've had a vision of it...with a big sign in the sky over it that says "Happy House!!!":) All things are possible with God right!!:) I always think of what Meryl Streep said in the movie "Out Of Africa" (one of my faves!) "...I think she said to Dennis (Robert Redford)..."I'm much better at "hello"...." I relate. I remember another quote from her in that movie...sometimes when people read my poetry and my writing they say it is very romantic...well sometimes it really is...it just comes out of my spirit.... and yes it is soo true I am a romantic at heart...I long to have some of those experiences...so in that sense it isn't like I have lived that...it is from, as Meryl Streep said to Dennis and his friend "I have been a mental traveler..." I would have to say that my inner world is a very rich world replete with many treasures. We get so focused on the outward appearances and the superficial, when there are treasures inside these earthen vessels. Sharon and I talked about an experience I had in Israel...where I saw a little boy in a wheel chair who was crippled... after prayer...get up and walk to his mother. We all wept...and I remembered how it affected me, because I had the same experience as a little girl. When I was a child I became very ill with a fever....it was Rheumatic Fever...it left me paralyzed...affected my inner ears..and my heart. The doctors told my mother I would never walk again...would be on medication the rest of my life...but they were wrong...I was paralyzed for a year...but one day because of the faith of my mother and a little child believing in what God said to me, and prayer, I recieved a miracle...I got out of that wheel chair just like that little boy, and walked across the room to my mother and my aunt. I'm walking today, and my heart is fine!!:) sometimes I still have inner ear problems , but I believe I can still be healed from that! God is so good, and I give Him all the glory for everything in my life. Only by his grace....only by his grace.